Monday, December 26, 2005

Victory! (And a Few Minor Defeats)

Well, it has been a while since I blogged at you. I have been busy……busy kicking Veneno’s butt. Yes, she is only getting waffles here. She is whining in her latest post about how I sucked out on her. The fact is that I was on the mat earlier in that session and she let me back in.

In the final hand, I held AK and she held 77. Half of my chips are in the pot when the flop comes J5J. She goes all in, I call. The river is a king. Game, Set. Match. I figured she may be bluffing, but most likely she has a pocket pair or a 5. Given that I only need the one game to win the match and she needs two, I think it is a call. Let’s take a back-of-the-envelope look at the EV:

I call:
28% + 10% chance she is bluffing = 38% chance to win the match right then and there.

I fold:
I am a 2-1 underdog by the chip count. That makes me about 33% to win the match in that session.

I can afford to lose that game, as I would still have another shot at it. Call seems to be the correct play. So, I think more baking, photographing, shipping, and image hosting and less whining would be in order. Boo-yah!

The bad news is that I seem to have totally lost my focus. I have stopped tracking my sessions on my spreadsheet (although, my Poker Tracker stats are still in order.) I have stopped going back and analyzing the best and worst of my play after each session. And, I have stopped forward progress on my reading list.

This all started about a week ago. I had a couple of really bad beats. I should have just walked away. Instead I played harder. In the end, I made back all the losses from a really bad session. But that isn’t the bad part. I kept playing and playing. The cycle of wins and losses repeated several times. Finally, this morning, I realized that I had been sucked into a swirling vortex.

To put it simply, I had, in the last week, become outcome oriented, instead of process oriented. That seems to be the worst thing I could be doing. The whole point of this exercise is to have a process, use the process, and use the feedback I from the process to improve the process.

Where do I go from here?

  • I need to forgive myself for screwing up.
  • I need to resume tracking all of my sessions in my spread sheet.
  • I need to estimate my time and win/loss for the sessions I missed.
  • I need to set aside some time to catch up on my reading.
  • I need to get back into the habit of reviewing the best and worst of each session, immediately after the session.
  • I need to celebrate kicking Veneno’s butt.

I am going to be in AC (and probably NYC) tomorrow through Friday. I plan to bring my laptop and blog after each session.



Blogger Mr Subliminal said...

We are only human and are allowed a lapse or two. Recognize this and don't be too harsh on yourself. You have set yourself lofty goals so this won't be easy.

1:42 PM  
Blogger Veneno said...

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8:50 PM  
Blogger Veneno said...

Enjoy your victory. You deserve it. Don't worry, I will reward you properly.

And don't be so hard on yourself. Do what you think you need to do. But up till now you were winning. So, it was working. You took some hits and went back to your focus. Sounds like you have a good plan. Use it when you need it.

Oh, and thanks for making me look good. Even if that was not your intention. Full details on my post.

Enjoy your trip!

Nice to see you posting again.

8:50 PM  
Anonymous ellaspapi said...

Hey Weak,

I guess Soxlover didn't want to respond to my question about which club(s)in NY he likes. With the heat on the clubs I understand.

Anyhow, since we have played together on FT I thought I'd ask you. Are you planning to play in NYC? If so, when/where? Wouldn't mind joining you. Just a name or part of town is good enough since I know most of the places.

By the way my name is Mike and if you want you can ask Pauly, Derek, Joaquin (Rooster) or Dave (F-Train) to vouch for me.

7:16 AM  
Blogger Veneno said...

Hey Slacker..

When you gonna post?

7:38 AM  
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